It All Comes Down To This

I do not have the best relationship with my parents. I find it hard to remember the last time we just had a conversation without yelling and often times their harsh words pulsate through me like venom. The past few weeks in particular all I have wanted was a normal relationship with the people in my family.I know that this contradicts a lot of what I write and preach about. I am always talking about how we should appreciate what we have and cherish it, and by me sitting here asking for more from my parents, I am in direct violation of these rules I have established for the way I want to live my life. So I have decided that wants are okay, to an extent. It is desire and wants that keep the world turning, and without any desire we would have no motivation and ultimately are species would be cast down to its more instinctive form. However, I think wanting something like a solid relationship with my parents was asking for a little much and did not really fit in with what I tell readers. I was being greedy.Last night I was with my girlfriend sitting in my T.V room. We were just casually flipping through the channels laying with each other as we often do. Let me just say right now that my girlfriend has been the person I tell everything to, and one of the only people in my life that I can truly say I trust. She is always there for me when I need her to be and makes me happier than I ever have been before. Most of the time she brings out the best and me, and I am truly thankful to have her in my life.Having said that, I was feeling a little upset about the situation with my parents and she noticed instantly. After asking a few times, I finally broke down and put my head and her shoulder where I kept it for about an hour as I thought and spoke about everything wrong in my life. I spoke about my family in particular, and how all I wanted was normal parents that respected me and treated me well when I saw them.At the end of the night, although she did cheer me up a great deal when I really thought no one could, I was still feeling upset. I went to sleep upset and woke up this morning still feeling uneasy. It was at that moment that I realized where I needed to go with my life.My point is that everything happens for a reason. All these things that we think are the end of the world end up being good for us. Maybe it is not as noticeable as you leaving your shoes untied and tripping only to find a 100 dollar bill in front of you, but it happens. These bad experiences are meant to teach us and show us that life is not perfect, and that everyone has problems and things they do not like, but it is those who let those bad things overshadow the good that allow their minds to take them to dark places they would dare not step.We all come into this world the same way. It is these events, both good and bad, that shape and mold how we exists. Our lives are short and often very fragile. We have to learn that not everyone has everything, and that our greatest ability as people is to turn our biggest weaknesses into our most powerful strengths.

"So why do alot of your articles make it sound like our time is running out?"

This is a very good question for me to start with. As you probably have all noticed, I tend to stress the appreciation of the time we have. There are two main reasons I do this.
The first takes me back to my freshmen year in high school. To make a long and sad story much shorter, I lived next to my grandmother who was getting very old and sick. My parents left me the house for the night and my only responsibility was to check on her. In the heat of the moment, I opted to go out with a bunch of older guys instead for the popularity points, and while I was gone my grandma fell. My family found her the next day and by the time I go to the hospital she was gone. I really never did have a chance to truly say goodbye to her. It is a mistake that I am forced to live with for the rest of my life, and since I can not change the past, I want to use that experience to enlighten the futures of the people around me if possible.
The second reason is also self explanatory. I am currently in a relationship with a girl I care about very much, unfortunately, she attends school 350 miles away from me, and at times it gets very hard. I miss her almost constantly when I am at school and talk to her as much as I can, but nothing beats the feeling of actually being able to hold the person you care about so much. When I am with her I make sure that I appreciate every second of it and truly thank God for every time I get the chance to be with her. To get the most out of relationships, I hope you all do the same.

I hope this answers your question, and I am looking forward to many more in the future.

Simple, But Unforgettable

We as people are very social creatures. I think that we all have our wants. Some of these wants can be as small as a new bike, affection from a member of the opposite sex, or even something as simple as one day where everything just goes well. However, I think among everything else the one thing that all people want is to be remembered in some way. To know that their life did not go without purpose, and to feel that that have affected others in some way. In some cases, this want can be the fuel for how we end up living the rest of our lives.
I know I would always like to be remembered. It is a strange thought to think that after my life is over, my name would never be uttered again, my works would be forgotten, and my life would seem almost meaningless. A white dwarf that quickly dissipates into a black whole, never to be seen by the human eye again. I hope that in my life I can have some kind of impact on some kind of person. Now this does not mean that I have to dive across train tracks to save an injured toddler. There are many ways you can impact people and change lives.
I hope to impact each of you with my writing. I hope my words have a lasting impression on you, and although you may not agree, you always will understand that I am able to speak my mind clearly and fluently in a way that makes sense. I hope that teachers remember me as one of the good students who was going places, whether or not I end up actually doing so. Most importantly, I hope that those I care most about remember me as a person who truly cared about them, and that my parents two of those people. I do my best to try and live like if I were to disappear tomorrow and never be heard from again, that my name and more importantly, my character and thoughts, will be echoed for years to come.
So in conclusion I leave you with this. Do not hold grudges to prove a point. Do not use petty jealously and tricks to get what you want. Always try your best be forward and precise with your points. Most of all, always let the people that you will never forget know how important they are. This line is corny and overused, but you never know how many more times your going to have to tell them what they mean to you.