So the last time I had talked in this, I spoke about fear of going to school. I talked to you about missing people I cared about alot and furthermore, my fear of the people I would be involved with. I have to say that those fears have become more real than I ever thought.

To start off, my classes are very challenging. Last year I really did sail through school with minimal problems, and now it seems like everything is catching up with me all at once. I feel smothered, often times I feel like its more work than I will ever be able to complete. Besides that I look around me and see people that have no futures, people that do not care about their work, and people who are constantly concerned wtih things other than thier education.

Second of all my house is terrible. Everything is falling apart, the plumbing doesnt work, the air conditioning is non existant, its hot, muggy, and we dont even have screens so opening our windows are not an option. Overall the experience there is not too good, and creates a pretty weak study environment. Needless to say, its not helping that much.

I miss my girlfriend too. I knew it would be hard going away to school and being so far away from her, and of course I was right. She is really special to me and I love herm and honestly goin through the stuff im going through now I don't know what I would do without her. She is having a great time her first year at school and im happy to see that she is enjoying herself. I just miss her. However, there are so many things that remind me of her, it is almost like im with her for a little bit every day. It always makes me happy to know that a thunderstorm, a volkswagon bug, or a koala named charlie, will all remind me of her.

Now that I have listed my complaints, it is time to figure out what I am going to do. I know that at the end of the semester I will be able to leave this place and find out what I would like to do with my life, but until then II need a plan. I need to go to the library more frequently, and get mcuh more work done. I need to take the time to realize when I am being distracted, and seperate myself from those situations. I need to realize that it is time for me to step it up to the next level and do whatever is necessary to do well in school this semester. I just need to get a grip on the situation, and take care of it.

You know my girfriend has always said to me that everything always works out, and shes right. If I give my best effort, it will all work out on the end. Sometimes you just look around and realize that the situation is not the best, but that doesnt not mean you cant make the best of it. I have to take the responsabiliy and move forward and do everything I can to make the most of this semester.

I know its been a while since i have posted last and I apologize. I was getting settled into school for my sophomore year and I have been through a lot of different emotions. But now that i have had time to clear my head I would like to talk, about my girlfriend.

Now I know what all of you are thinking. "Oh my god he is gonna talk about her again, I thought this was supposed to be a blog about life". Well, this is a blog about life, I spend my time talking about things that I find important in my life, and one of the most important aspects of my life is her. So I would like to talk about her for a little bit.

When I was growing up I was overweight. My whole life I was told in a joking manner from my friends that nobody would ever care about me because of my weight. I battled and fought and struggled and then when I was finally at the average weight, I broke out in terrible acne. At that time I thought that nobody would ever care about me, and that my high school, as well as my life, would be particularly lonely.

Then, my sophomore year, I met a girl that would change my life. Although for a few years she would not give me the time of day, my efforts paid off and the day before I first went to college I was able to kiss her.

We spent the next months working and improving on our relationship and soon we were dating. Now it has been over six months since the day she said yes to me asking her out, and I could not be happier. My whole life I had seen those movies about the girl that would change your life, the girl that would change the way you think, and the girl that after you met her, all those love songs you never understood all your life would suddenly make sense. The people who told me all of these things could not have been any more correct.

I can honestly say my girlfriend is one of the best things that has ever happened to me and one of the most important parts of my life. Recently I went to visit her at her school and just being with her, just being in the same state as her made me happy. I could have the worst day of my life, be practically in tears, and just looking into her eyes and seeing her smile makes everything better. When I'm not close to her, hearing her voice on the phone and listening to her laugh and occasionally seeing her smile on a web cam is all i need to make my week. Overall I have to say in complete honesty that I met someone very special to me that is very important in my life. I met a girl I would do anything to make happy. I met a girl that means more to me than anyone I have ever met in my life and truly care about her. I know some of you are seeing this as a pointless post, and its more than obvious that those of you that have have not experienced this feeling yet. More than anything I just want you all to know that I met someone very special, and I love her.